{"id":101800,"date":"2022-07-01T02:50:09","date_gmt":"2022-07-01T02:50:09","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/?p=101800"},"modified":"2022-06-30T20:29:16","modified_gmt":"2022-06-30T20:29:16","slug":"kkiss-szekely-zoltan-az-emlekezet-felulmulja-onmagat","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/?p=101800","title":{"rendered":"Kiss Sz\u00e9kely Zolt\u00e1n: Az eml\u00e9kezet fel\u00fclm\u00falja \u00f6nmag\u00e1t"},"content":{"rendered":"\r\n<p>Kar\u00e1csonyf\u00e1v\u00e1 vedlett a luc teteje,<br>Ellopt\u00e1k a felh\u0151ket Kertem eg\u00e9r\u0151l,<br>kapuja eml\u00e9ken t\u00falra korhadt. Vele<br>\u00e1lmodtam. A feledkez\u00e9s erdej\u00e9b\u0151l<!--more--><br><br>k\u00e1posztalepke-v\u00e1zakat r\u00f6ptet a sz\u00e9l.<br>Elcipelt\u00e9k az udvar macskak\u00f6veit.<br>V\u00e9n eperfa. Odv\u00e1b\u00f3l csak a bicskany\u00e9l<br>kandik\u00e1l ki. Az \u00c9des r\u00f3zsat\u00f6veit<br><br>humussz\u00e1 ett\u00e9k r\u00e9g a f\u00e9rgek. Elt\u0171nik,<br>elfelejthet\u0151v\u00e9 zsugorodik minden,<br>minek neve volt. Agyamba tolakodik,<br>hi\u00e1nyt t\u00f6lt ki a k\u00f6lcs\u00f6nkapott t\u00e1j. Kincsem<br><br>volt, nincsen. Idegen mez\u0151 tolakodik<br>szemembe. Szavam sincs az itt \u00e9l\u0151kre sem.<br>Ismeretlen minden arc. Meg nem hat\u00f3dik<br>az idegen, kegy\u00e9t hi\u00e1ba is lesem.<br><br>\u00daj \u00e9let? Teremt\u00e9s\u00e9b\u0151l kimaradtam.<br>Nincs semmi, mi eml\u00e9keimmel azonos.<br>Szeppenek csak, a r\u00e9gib\u0151l kitagadtan.<br>Merre vagyok, vagyok-e \u00e9n m\u00e9g \u0151shonos.<br><br>T\u00f6mve szemem otthoni l\u00e1tom\u00e1sokkal.<br>Eml\u00e9keim m\u00e9ly\u00e9n t\u00e1voli napnyugta<br>visszf\u00e9nye. Bajmol\u00f3dom fura \u00e1tkokkal.<br>Az ablakt\u00e1bl\u00e1t a m\u00falt r\u00e9gen becsukta.<br><br>Borzolt f\u00e9nyek az ablakkeretek m\u00f6g\u00f6tt.<br>\u00c1porodott, port szit\u00e1l\u00f3 f\u00e9lhom\u00e1lyban<br>\u00e1csorgok, mint ki m\u00faltj\u00e1b\u00f3l is megsz\u00f6k\u00f6tt.<br>Nem lelem helyem itt, sem a hagyom\u00e1nyban.<br><br>N\u00e9zem vakon, szavaimmal tapogatom,<br>kimondom: ez volt az otthonom, a h\u00e1zam.<br>Sz\u00e1mot kell vetnem, hi\u00e1ba halogatom.<br>Jaj annak, aminek egyszer nevet adtam.<br><br>Eml\u00e9ke hozz\u00e1m d\u00f6rg\u00f6l\u0151zik, lassan \u00f6l,<br>mint a k\u00e9rget a kid\u00f6nt\u00f6tt f\u00e1r\u00f3l, leh\u00e1nt.<br>A feled\u00e9s szurkos hom\u00e1ly re\u00e1d\u0151l.<br>Vae victis! Ipso memoria superant.<br><br><em>2022. m\u00e1jus 29.<\/em><\/p>\r\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Kar\u00e1csonyf\u00e1v\u00e1 vedlett a luc teteje,Ellopt\u00e1k a felh\u0151ket Kertem eg\u00e9r\u0151l,kapuja eml\u00e9ken t\u00falra korhadt. Vele\u00e1lmodtam. A feledkez\u00e9s erdej\u00e9b\u0151l<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-101800","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-vers"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/101800","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=101800"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/101800\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=101800"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=101800"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=101800"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}