{"id":21262,"date":"2013-03-06T10:43:11","date_gmt":"2013-03-06T10:43:11","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/?p=21262"},"modified":"2013-03-06T10:43:11","modified_gmt":"2013-03-06T10:43:11","slug":"demeny-peter-kulonos-szenveink","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/?p=21262","title":{"rendered":"Dem\u00e9ny P\u00e9ter: K\u00fcl\u00f6n\u00f6s szenveink"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>Olykor elt\u00f6prengek a szenveimen: legyenek b\u00e1r rokonok vagy ellenek, egyk\u00e9nt megmagyar\u00e1zhatatlanok tulajdonk\u00e9ppen.<\/strong> Vagy legy\u00fcnk megfontoltabbak: mindig van benn\u00fck valami megmagyar\u00e1zhatatlan.<!--more--><\/p>\n<p>Az egyik k\u00f6lt\u0151 n\u00e1rcisztikus, egocentrikus, sorra id\u00e9zi saj\u00e1t verseit, csak aknavet\u0151vel szabadulhatok t\u0151le, m\u00e9gis rokonszenves \u2013 a m\u00e1sik ugyanilyen, semmivel sem f\u00e1raszt\u00f3bb, tal\u00e1n csak macs\u00f3bb \u00e9s p\u00e9nzorient\u00e1ltabb, mint az els\u0151, m\u00e9gis ellenszenves. Az egyik \u00f6reg\u00far \u00e9ppolyan nosztalgi\u00e1val viszonyul a diktat\u00far\u00e1hoz, mint a m\u00e1sik, tal\u00e1n csak a ked\u00e9lye vil\u00e1gosabb, nappalibb, az egyik m\u00e9gis rokon-, a m\u00e1sik viszont ellenszenves.<\/p>\n<p>Rengeteg ilyen p\u00e1rost, ilyen oktalan k\u00fcl\u00f6nbs\u00e9get tudn\u00e9k felsorolni \u2013 oktalant, mert alig b\u00edrom racionaliz\u00e1lni. A k\u00f6znapi \u00e9letben nem is igen kellene, de ha m\u00e1r cikket \u00edrok az egykori rendszer perverzit\u00e1s\u00e1r\u00f3l, akkor j\u00f3 lenne tiszt\u00e1ban lennem mindk\u00e9t ir\u00e1ny forr\u00e1s\u00e1val.<\/p>\n<p>De nem tudok, csak annyit: mindk\u00e9t forr\u00e1s bennem buzog, az \u00e9n nehezen kezelt szubjektivit\u00e1som az oka minden szenvemnek. Milyen j\u00f3 is lenne, ha soha nem kellene sem csal\u00f3dnom, sem f\u00e9lren\u00e9znem. De h\u00e1t addig m\u00e9g sok van. Ha b\u00f6lcs leszek, meg\u00edrom majd, mit t\u00e9vedtem el\u0151z\u0151 \u00e9letemben, s hogyan b\u00e1ntottam meg azt, akit szerethettem volna tulajdonk\u00e9ppen.<\/p>\n<p>(Forr\u00e1s: <a href=\"http:\/\/jodemenysegfoka.blog.hu\/\"><em>A j\u00f3dem\u00e9nys\u00e9g foka<\/em><\/a>)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Olykor elt\u00f6prengek a szenveimen: legyenek b\u00e1r rokonok vagy ellenek, egyk\u00e9nt megmagyar\u00e1zhatatlanok tulajdonk\u00e9ppen. Vagy legy\u00fcnk megfontoltabbak: mindig van benn\u00fck valami megmagyar\u00e1zhatatlan.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-21262","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-jegyzet"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21262","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=21262"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21262\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=21262"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=21262"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=21262"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}