{"id":43035,"date":"2015-07-23T09:51:41","date_gmt":"2015-07-23T09:51:41","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/?p=43035"},"modified":"2015-07-23T09:51:41","modified_gmt":"2015-07-23T09:51:41","slug":"rideg-krisztina-feloldozas","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/?p=43035","title":{"rendered":"Rideg Krisztina: Feloldoz\u00e1s"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><em><strong>(R\u00e9szlet az Alkalmass\u00e1g c\u00edm\u0171 reg\u00e9nyb\u0151l)<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n<p>Mintha minden hal\u00e1lban a saj\u00e1t elm\u00fal\u00e1sommal n\u00e9ztem volna szembe: id\u0151tlen\u00fcl. Pedig a hal\u00e1l mindig ugyanaz volt. J\u00f6tt, amikor j\u00f6nnie kellett, csak \u00e9n voltam mindig m\u00e1s. \u00c9s \u00e9reztem, hogy a bennem \u00e9l\u0151 gyermek\u00e9 volt any\u00e1m szomor\u00fas\u00e1ga, \u00e9s \u00e9reztem, hogy a bennem \u00e9l\u0151 fiatals\u00e1g\u00e9 volt az Istent is sz\u00e1monk\u00e9r\u0151 l\u00e1zad\u00e1s.<br \/>\n<!--more--><br \/>\n\u00c9s \u00e9n voltam az is, aki ott \u00e9s akkor, a k\u00f3rh\u00e1zban, cs\u00f6ndben \u00e1llva, a szem\u00e9be n\u00e9zett a hal\u00e1lnak egy pillanatra, nagyany\u00e1m tekintet\u00e9n \u00e1t. \u00c9s \u00e9reztem, hogy a nagyany\u00e1m hal\u00e1la miatt \u00e9rzett szomor\u00fas\u00e1gom, elveszett az ap\u00e1m ir\u00e1nt \u00e9rzett r\u00e9szv\u00e9tem \u00e9s egy\u00fctt\u00e9rz\u00e9sem \u00e1rny\u00e9k\u00e1ban. \u00c9s \u00e9reztem, hogy az ap\u00e1m miatt \u00e9rzett r\u00e9szv\u00e9tem \u00e9s egy\u00fctt\u00e9rz\u00e9sem, elveszett a mindens\u00e9g akarat\u00e1nak elfogad\u00e1s\u00e1ban.<\/p>\n<p>Mintha ott \u00e9s akkor, alkalmass\u00e1gom lett volna r\u00e1, hogy \u00e9rezzem. Szavak n\u00e9lk\u00fcli feloldoz\u00e1ss\u00e1 v\u00e1lt bennem az elm\u00fal\u00e1s, kiker\u00fclhetetlen\u00fcl az \u00e9let r\u00e9sz\u00e9v\u00e9 olvadt \u00e9s tudtam, hogy majd mindenki\u00e9rt j\u00f6nni fog, \u00e9s az \u00fagy van j\u00f3l.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>(R\u00e9szlet az Alkalmass\u00e1g c\u00edm\u0171 reg\u00e9nyb\u0151l) Mintha minden hal\u00e1lban a saj\u00e1t elm\u00fal\u00e1sommal n\u00e9ztem volna szembe: id\u0151tlen\u00fcl. Pedig a hal\u00e1l mindig ugyanaz volt. J\u00f6tt, amikor j\u00f6nnie kellett, csak \u00e9n voltam mindig m\u00e1s. \u00c9s \u00e9reztem, hogy a bennem \u00e9l\u0151 gyermek\u00e9 volt any\u00e1m szomor\u00fas\u00e1ga, \u00e9s \u00e9reztem, hogy a bennem \u00e9l\u0151 fiatals\u00e1g\u00e9 volt az Istent is sz\u00e1monk\u00e9r\u0151 l\u00e1zad\u00e1s.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-43035","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-regeny"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/43035","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=43035"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/43035\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=43035"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=43035"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=43035"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}