{"id":46793,"date":"2015-12-10T07:37:14","date_gmt":"2015-12-10T07:37:14","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/?p=46793"},"modified":"2015-12-10T07:37:48","modified_gmt":"2015-12-10T07:37:48","slug":"vasi-ferenc-zoltan-egy-havi-penzum-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/?p=46793","title":{"rendered":"Vasi Ferenc Zolt\u00e1n: Egy havi penzum (2)"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>2009. IV. 30. cs\u00fct\u00f6rt\u00f6k \u2013 Szanat\u00f3rium<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>6 \u00f3ra t\u00e1jt \u00e9bredtem, a tegnapi nap \u201evirraszt\u00e1s\u00e1t\u201d kitoldtam. Zolt\u00e1n b\u00e1ty\u00e1mmal viccel\u0151dt\u00fcnk, m\u00e9rgel\u0151dt\u00fcnk, \u00e1lland\u00f3an lejmolnak. Nincs! \u2013 ennyi balsors ut\u00e1n meg kell v\u00e9gre tanulnom. Meg\u00e9l\u00e9nk\u00fclt lelki \u00e9letem. Zolt\u00e1n b\u00e1-t nem \u00e9rdekli, eltereli. <!--more-->Nekil\u00e1ttam Heged\u0171s \u0151rnagy \u00far sz\u00e1m\u00e1ra a lev\u00e9lnek. 4 oldal lett. A teljess\u00e9g ig\u00e9nye n\u00e9lk\u00fcl. De olyan, mint egy szerz\u0151d\u00e9s \u2013 az \u00e9n felfog\u00e1som szerint -, nem ny\u00falhatok hozz\u00e1, al\u00e1\u00edrhatom csak, v\u00e1llalni a k\u00f6vetkezm\u00e9nyeit, \u00e9s tov\u00e1bbmenni. Mert sok l\u00e9nyeges dolog kimaradt, s ami bennrekedt, m\u00e9g folyamat\u00e1ban el\u0151 kell j\u00f6nnie. Nem sz\u00e9p \u00fagy v\u00e1dat emelni, hogy nem eg\u00e9szen fixek a t\u00e9ny\u00e1ll\u00e1sok. Patologikus viszonyban \u00e1ll\u00f3k\u00e9pek vannak. Ahol t\u00f6bbszerepl\u0151s az esem\u00e9ny, ott k\u00f6ztudat \u00e9s egy\u00e9n ambivalenci\u00e1ja l\u00e9p fel. \u00c9n vagyok a s\u00e9rtett, de nincs igazam, f\u00e9lig-meddig magamnak kerestem a bajt. A t\u00f6bbi ideol\u00f3gia \u00e9s kifog\u00e1skeres\u00e9s. L\u00e1tni nem csup\u00e1n a szem\u00e9vel l\u00e1t az ember, maga k\u00e1r\u00e1n tanulni id\u0151vesztes\u00e9g. A megoldatlan probl\u00e9m\u00e1k vektoreltol\u00e1sa. \u00d6nismeretre sz\u00fclet\u00fcnk, a kereszt\u00e9nys\u00e9g tudati vall\u00e1s. Aki tiszt\u00e1ban van a viszonyok veszedelmess\u00e9g\u00e9vel, ker\u00fcli embert\u00e1rsait. T\u00e1rgybirtokl\u00e1s, tulajdoncsere \u2013 mint \u00e1lszereteti gyakorlat. Adni se, k\u00e9rni se j\u00f3 \u2013 teremts, l\u00e9gy tal\u00e1l\u00e9kony \u00e9s ne szenved\u00e9lybeteg. A m\u00e9rt\u00e9k megtal\u00e1l\u00e1sa \u2013 \u00f6nz\u00e9s \u00e9s ad\u00f3z\u00e1s. K\u00f6z\u00f6ss\u00e9g n\u00e9lk\u00fcl van boldogs\u00e1g? \u2013 k\u00e9rdezte tegnap a p\u00fcnk\u00f6sdista h\u00f6lgy. Ma: kikap\u00e1lta a szoborkertet. S \u00e9n tudom tapasztalatb\u00f3l, milyen a buta kert\u00e9sz.<\/p>\n<p><em>(Folytatjuk)<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>2009. IV. 30. cs\u00fct\u00f6rt\u00f6k \u2013 Szanat\u00f3rium 6 \u00f3ra t\u00e1jt \u00e9bredtem, a tegnapi nap \u201evirraszt\u00e1s\u00e1t\u201d kitoldtam. Zolt\u00e1n b\u00e1ty\u00e1mmal viccel\u0151dt\u00fcnk, m\u00e9rgel\u0151dt\u00fcnk, \u00e1lland\u00f3an lejmolnak. Nincs! \u2013 ennyi balsors ut\u00e1n meg kell v\u00e9gre tanulnom. Meg\u00e9l\u00e9nk\u00fclt lelki \u00e9letem. Zolt\u00e1n b\u00e1-t nem \u00e9rdekli, eltereli.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[132],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-46793","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-elbeszeles"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46793","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=46793"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46793\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=46793"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=46793"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=46793"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}