{"id":75450,"date":"2018-06-25T02:55:19","date_gmt":"2018-06-25T02:55:19","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/?p=75450"},"modified":"2018-06-24T09:37:29","modified_gmt":"2018-06-24T09:37:29","slug":"andrassew-ivan-kismesterek","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/?p=75450","title":{"rendered":"Andrassew Iv\u00e1n: Kismesterek"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>M\u00e1r hajnalban viszketett a sz\u00e1rnyam helye. D\u00e9lben, amikor a s\u00e1rk\u00e1nyokr\u00f3l besz\u00e9lgett\u00fcnk, a f\u00f6lt\u00e1mad\u00f3 retteg\u00e9st\u0151l ki kellett mennem a f\u00fcrd\u0151szob\u00e1ba.<br \/>\nAmikor visszaj\u00f6ttem, azt mondt\u00e1tok, m\u00e1r megint moh\u00f3 volt a k\u00e9pzeletem, \u00e9s ennek nem lesz j\u00f3 v\u00e9ge, mert az ilyenek, amilyen \u00e9n vagyok az akaratuk er\u0151tlens\u00e9g\u00e9t\u0151l szenvednek, \u00e9s ahelyett, hogy k\u00fcl\u00f6nf\u00e9le t\u00edpus\u00fa l\u00e9gj\u00e1r\u00f3 szerkezetek \u00e9p\u00edt\u00e9s\u00e9n t\u00f6rn\u00e9k a fej\u00fcket, csak \u00e1lmodoznak, de v\u00e9g\u00fcl olyanokk\u00e1 lesznek, mint a f\u00e1k.<!--more--><br \/>\nR\u00e1m \u00fcgyet se vetve tov\u00e1bb diskur\u00e1ltatok a sz\u00e9l ir\u00e1ny\u00e1r\u00f3l, a nekifut\u00e1s kedvez\u0151 m\u00e9rt\u00e9k\u00e9r\u0151l, a lesz\u00e1ll\u00e1s veszedelmeir\u0151l. Amikor a hason lebegve r\u00f6pk\u00f6d\u00e9s el\u0151nyeir\u0151l \u00e9s h\u00e1tr\u00e1nyair\u00f3l lament\u00e1ltatok, meg\u00e9rtettem: ti sohasem \u00e9rthetitek meg a dolog l\u00e9nyeg\u00e9t, mint ahogy azok a kismesterek se tudtak semmit, akik sz\u00e1rnyakat is meg kezeket is f\u00f6st\u00f6ttek az Isten angyalainak. Sajnos ti \u00farr\u00e1 akartok lenni a term\u00e9szet er\u0151in, \u00e9n pedig csak abb\u00f3l v\u00e9tettem, \u00e9s a k\u00f6r\u00fclm\u00e9nyek szerencs\u00e9s tal\u00e1lkoz\u00e1sa \u00faj er\u0151v\u00e9 tett. Att\u00f3l a pillanatt\u00f3l, amikor a viszket\u00e9sb\u0151l \u00e1lland\u00f3 f\u00e1jdalom lesz, a n\u00f6veked\u00e9s gy\u00f6trelme, sorvadni kezd a karom.<br \/>\nNem lesz mi\u00e9rt szelekr\u0151l, emelked\u0151 meleg l\u00e9g\u00f6rv\u00e9nyekr\u0151l meg eff\u00e9l\u00e9kr\u0151l besz\u00e9lni. A r\u00f6p\u00fcl\u00e9sr\u0151l pedig nem kell t\u00f6bb\u00e9 sz\u00f3t ejteni, mert \u00e9n nem pil\u00f3ta, hanem r\u00f6pk\u00f6d\u0151 kedv\u0171 l\u00e9ny akarok lenni. El\u0151sz\u00f6r a dolgok t\u00f6rt\u00e9net\u00e9ben a v\u00e1gy lend\u00edti majd mozg\u00e1sba az evol\u00faci\u00f3t.<br \/>\nTizen\u00f6t kil\u00f3t fogytam egy h\u00f3nap alatt. Egyre v\u00e9konyabbak \u00e9s hosszabbak a csontjaim. Am\u00edg ti alum\u00edniumdarabokkal meg csirics\u00e1r\u00e9 m\u0171anyagrongyokkal vacakoltok, \u00e9n beb\u00e1boz\u00f3dom k\u00e9pzeletem \u00e9s v\u00e1gyakoz\u00e1som h\u00e1l\u00f3j\u00e1ba. Azt\u00e1n \u00fagy lend\u00fcl\u00f6k mell\u00e9tek a kacatokt\u00f3l hemzseg\u0151 leveg\u0151be, hogy amid\u0151n megl\u00e1ttok, a s\u00f3v\u00e1r irigys\u00e9gben minden \u00f6r\u00f6m\u00f6t\u00f6k retteg\u0151 v\u00e1gyakoz\u00e1ss\u00e1 zsugorodik. Valamikor, \u00e9vek m\u00falva, d\u00e9l k\u00f6r\u00fcl, egy f\u00fcrd\u0151szob\u00e1ban ti is f\u00f6lismerhetitek viszketegs\u00e9getek v\u00e9g\u00e9nek kezdet\u00e9t.<\/p>\n<!--[if lt IE 9]><script>document.createElement('audio');<\/script><![endif]-->\n<audio class=\"wp-audio-shortcode\" id=\"audio-75450-1\" preload=\"none\" style=\"width: 100%;\" controls=\"controls\"><source type=\"audio\/mpeg\" src=\"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/06\/19-Kismesterek.mp3?_=1\" \/><a href=\"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/06\/19-Kismesterek.mp3\">https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/06\/19-Kismesterek.mp3<\/a><\/audio>\n<p><em><strong>Forr\u00e1s: Mondott k\u00f6nyv. CD.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>M\u00e1r hajnalban viszketett a sz\u00e1rnyam helye. D\u00e9lben, amikor a s\u00e1rk\u00e1nyokr\u00f3l besz\u00e9lgett\u00fcnk, a f\u00f6lt\u00e1mad\u00f3 retteg\u00e9st\u0151l ki kellett mennem a f\u00fcrd\u0151szob\u00e1ba. Amikor visszaj\u00f6ttem, azt mondt\u00e1tok, m\u00e1r megint moh\u00f3 volt a k\u00e9pzeletem, \u00e9s ennek nem lesz j\u00f3 v\u00e9ge, mert az ilyenek, amilyen \u00e9n vagyok az akaratuk er\u0151tlens\u00e9g\u00e9t\u0151l szenvednek, \u00e9s ahelyett, hogy k\u00fcl\u00f6nf\u00e9le t\u00edpus\u00fa l\u00e9gj\u00e1r\u00f3 szerkezetek \u00e9p\u00edt\u00e9s\u00e9n t\u00f6rn\u00e9k a [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[136],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-75450","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-hangoskonyv"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/75450","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=75450"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/75450\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=75450"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=75450"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=75450"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}