{"id":8319,"date":"2011-04-01T06:26:37","date_gmt":"2011-04-01T06:26:37","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/?p=8319"},"modified":"2011-04-01T06:26:56","modified_gmt":"2011-04-01T06:26:56","slug":"kedei-zoltan-foldi-szerelem-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/?p=8319","title":{"rendered":"Kedei Zolt\u00e1n: F\u00f6ldi szerelem"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><em>(Besz\u00e9l\u0151 ecset)<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Viaskodom szavakkal, sz\u00ednekkel, form\u00e1kkal. Viaskod\u00e1som k\u00f6lt\u0151i t\u00f6red\u00e9k, \u00e1lmaim letisztult old\u00f3szere.Beh\u00fazott f\u00e9kkel a cs\u00facs fel\u00e9 tartottam, mag\u00e1nyos t\u00e1ny\u00e9rra ker\u00fcltem. Visszan\u00e9ztem az illatos mez\u0151re, f\u00f6lborult a k\u00e9p. Megsz\u00f3lalt az \u0151si dallam: je t&#8217;aime.<br \/>\nVari\u00e1lom a szavakat, recseg a cinizmus.<!--more--><br \/>\nA lehet\u0151s\u00e9get kezembe tett\u00e9k, a sz\u00edvembe z\u00e1rtam, el is vesz\u00edtettem, az\u00f3ta futom p\u00e1ly\u00e1mat a holnap el\u00e9be. F\u00f6ldh\u00f6z lapulok, mint a szerelem.<br \/>\nAz egek kapuja t\u00e1rva-nyitva \u00e1ll, bes\u00e9t\u00e1lhatok, de el\u0151z\u00f6en cell\u00e1ba k\u00e9nyszer\u00edtem a titokhazugs\u00e1got \u00e9s darabokra t\u00f6r\u00f6m a konvenci\u00f3t.<br \/>\nA po\u00e9zis hull\u00e1mhosz\u00e1n t\u00e9rdre erszkedem, \u00e9s faggatom a t\u00f6rt\u00e9neteket.<br \/>\nLetarolt\u00e1k a mez\u0151ket. Kisz\u00e1radt a f\u00f6ld. Omladoznak a h\u00e1zak.<br \/>\nLegy\u0151zhetetlennek l\u00e1tszik a t\u00e1vols\u00e1g. Elismerem: d\u0151res\u00e9gek vessz\u0151parip\u00e1ja.<br \/>\n\u00c1larc m\u00f6g\u00e9 rejt\u0151z\u00f6tt a nemzet, Nem l\u00e1tom a holnapot.<br \/>\nH\u00e1zak, ablakok, sorsok, \u00e9letek, hin\u00e1r \u00e9s s\u00e1r, mindent kifecsegnek, v\u00e1szonra ker\u00fclnek. Sz\u00f3t k\u00e9rnek a r\u00f3zsasz\u00ednek, a sz\u00fcrk\u00e9kkel nincs amit kezdenem. A term\u00e9szet \u0151rzi titkait.<br \/>\nMegszakad a k\u00e9p\u00edr\u00e1s.<\/p>\n<div id=\"attachment_8320\" style=\"width: 318px\" class=\"wp-caption alignnone\"><a href=\"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/04\/Memento11.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-8320\" class=\"size-full wp-image-8320\" title=\"Memento1\" src=\"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/04\/Memento11.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"308\" height=\"350\" srcset=\"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/04\/Memento11.jpg 308w, https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/04\/Memento11-264x300.jpg 264w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 308px) 100vw, 308px\" \/><\/a><p id=\"caption-attachment-8320\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">Kedei Zolt\u00e1n: Memento<\/p><\/div>\n<p>Gyermekorom sz\u00e9p eml\u00e9ke az \u00e9desany\u00e1m vir\u00e1gos kertje, a vir\u00e1gok m\u00e9g vir\u00e1goztak. Vir\u00e1ggal szebb az \u00e9let. &#8211; Itt \u00e9lned, halnod kell &#8211; jelezt\u00e9k a vir\u00e1gok.<br \/>\nS\u00f6p\u00f6rt a sz\u00e9l az \u00fatmenti k\u00f6veken, hadak mas\u00edroztak, jelk\u00e9pek \u00fasztak a vizen. Verg\u0151dtem a sz\u00e9lben. Egyszer fent lebegtem, m\u00e1skor lent hevertem. L\u00e1bnyom voltam s\u00e1rban, f\u0171sz\u00e1l az iszapban.<br \/>\nMagasra emelem kezeim, bel\u00e9m rekedt a tan\u00faskod\u00e1s, k\u00f6r\u00fclb\u00e1sty\u00e1zott a szeml\u00e9let. Megt\u00f6rik a messzes\u00e9gbe \u00edvel\u0151 vonal, elt\u0171nik a harm\u00f3nia.<br \/>\nSz\u00e9tforg\u00e1csol\u00f3dnak a t\u00e9nyek \u00e9s a hagyom\u00e1nyok.<br \/>\nA k\u00f6zismert j\u00e1t\u00e9kok figyelmeztetnek a megrekdt pillanat perverz f\u00e1jdalm\u00e1ra. A tel\u00edtetts\u00e9g sorsform\u00e1l\u00e1s\u00e1nak r\u00e9m\u00fclet\u00e9ben buktat\u00f3t t\u00e1maszt az \u00e1br\u00e1zol\u00e1s.<br \/>\nA buktat\u00f3\u00e9rt k\u00e1rp\u00f3tol az Isten.<br \/>\nPiszk\u00e1lom a t\u00fczet, megadja mag\u00e1t a k\u00e9p. Harsog a sz\u00e9l, lobban a l\u00e1ng, besz\u00e9lnek a gy\u00f6kerek.<br \/>\nHajszak\u00fczdelem, megrekedt holnap. F\u00e9kezek \u00e9s v\u00e1rok. Az izgalom m\u00e1mor\u00e1ban sistereg a zuhog\u00e1s. Felt\u00f6r a sikoly, fokozodik a pillanat perverz f\u00e1jdalma.<br \/>\nMement\u00f3 a h\u00e1rom\u00e9ves munkaszolg\u00e1latb\u00f3l: egyetlen f\u00e9nyk\u00e9p: foltozott, ac\u00e9lsz\u00fcrke dokruh\u00e1ban. \u00c9desany\u00e1m megs\u00e1rgult levele:<br \/>\n&#8221;(&#8230;) mintha te \u00e9rkezt\u00e9l volna haza, olyan boldogan n\u00e9zt\u00fck a k\u00e9pedet, (&#8230;) most tettem fel egy kis csomagot, haszn\u00e1ld eg\u00e9szs\u00e9ggel.&#8221;<br \/>\n&#8211; Mib\u0151l futotta csomagra 1953.VI. 20-\u00e1n? &#8211; k\u00e9rdezem 45 \u00e9v t\u00e1vlat\u00e1b\u00f3l.<br \/>\n\u00c1lhatatlankodnak a k\u00e9pek, eml\u00e9keztetnek lekopott l\u00e9t\u00fcnk v\u00e9rfoltos f\u00e9lelmeire. Let\u00f6rl\u00f6m orc\u00e1mr\u00f3l a verejt\u00e9k cseppjeit, a visszat\u00e9r\u0151 dolgokat \u00faj ruh\u00e1ba \u00f6lt\u00f6ztetem.<br \/>\nBagatell cs\u00f6km\u00f6k\u00f6k, sziszifuszi \u00e1lmok. A porond sz\u00e9l\u00e9n csilingel a j\u00f3s\u00e1g. Megosztom Vele \u00e1lmaim.<br \/>\nA t\u00f6rt\u00e9nelem cs\u00e9phadar\u00f3ja pergeti a szavakat: hullanak a cseng\u0151 szavak, n\u0151, egyre n\u0151 a gondolat \u00e9rt\u00e9ke.<br \/>\nV\u00e1rom elm\u00fal\u00e1s\u00e1t \u00e1rny\u00e9kboldogs\u00e1gnak.<br \/>\nA m\u0171terem ablak\u00e1n beragyog a f\u00e9ny.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>(Besz\u00e9l\u0151 ecset) Viaskodom szavakkal, sz\u00ednekkel, form\u00e1kkal. Viaskod\u00e1som k\u00f6lt\u0151i t\u00f6red\u00e9k, \u00e1lmaim letisztult old\u00f3szere.Beh\u00fazott f\u00e9kkel a cs\u00facs fel\u00e9 tartottam, mag\u00e1nyos t\u00e1ny\u00e9rra ker\u00fcltem. Visszan\u00e9ztem az illatos mez\u0151re, f\u00f6lborult a k\u00e9p. Megsz\u00f3lalt az \u0151si dallam: je t&#8217;aime. Vari\u00e1lom a szavakat, recseg a cinizmus.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[14,120,19],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-8319","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-a-regi-kafebol","category-essze","category-grafika"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8319","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=8319"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8319\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=8319"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=8319"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=8319"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}