
{"id":88025,"date":"2020-01-24T02:59:24","date_gmt":"2020-01-24T02:59:24","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/?p=88025"},"modified":"2020-01-20T06:56:26","modified_gmt":"2020-01-20T06:56:26","slug":"demeny-peter-ivan-karamazov-mai-vanitatum-vanitas","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/?p=88025","title":{"rendered":"Dem\u00e9ny P\u00e9ter \/ Ivan Karamazov\/: Mai vanitatum vanitas"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Hajlik m\u00e1r fel\u00e9m az eml\u00e9k,<br \/>\n\u00e1rja eg\u00e9sz tenger\u00e1r,<br \/>\negy szakad\u00e9k lett a nemr\u00e9g,<br \/>\na jelen meg defterd\u00e1r:<br \/>\nm\u00faltmorzs\u00e1kt\u00f3l ember lettem,<br \/>\ns vajon mi\u00e9rt tettem-vettem,<br \/>\n\u00f6nmegtr\u00f3jai fal\u00f3,<br \/>\nmind csak in\u00e1ba val\u00f3?<!--more--><\/p>\n<p>M\u00e1r oppardon \u00e9s bocs\u00e1nat,<br \/>\nv\u00e1laszolom hevesen<br \/>\nennek az \u00e9les hom\u00e1lynak:<br \/>\nmint a Marci Hevesen,<br \/>\nnem \u00e9ltem \u00e9n \u00fagy soha,<br \/>\na sorsom ide-oda<br \/>\nvetett, mint egy kis ladik,<br \/>\nnem csak \u00fagy, hogy&#8230; M\u00e9r? Na dikk.<\/p>\n<p>\u00c9n \u00fagy l\u00e1tom, \u00edgy folytatja<br \/>\nkem\u00e9ny besz\u00e9d\u00e9t a k\u00f6d,<br \/>\nkelmed a ny\u00e1l\u00e1t folyatja,<br \/>\n\u00edgy nyafog \u00e9s \u00fagy h\u00f6r\u00f6g,<br \/>\n\u00e9s mikor a kis igazs\u00e1g<br \/>\nj\u00f6n &#8211; akkor sincsen vigass\u00e1g,<br \/>\ncsak a b\u0151sz elm\u00e9letek,<br \/>\nsok-sok h\u00f3napos retek!<\/p>\n<p>No de m\u00e9gis&#8230; mit tehettem,<br \/>\nkedves nemzetes uram?<br \/>\nPisiltem \u00e9n sz\u00e9llel szemben,<br \/>\nmeneteltem gangosan,<br \/>\nmentem jobbra, mentem balra,<br \/>\nsz\u00e9tfoszlott a lelkem alja,<br \/>\nnem maradt m\u00e1r semmi sem,<br \/>\nmit keny\u00e9rre kenni sem!<\/p>\n<p>Harcaidban vit\u00e9z volt\u00e1l,<br \/>\nmond az \u00e9gi k\u00f6nyvel\u0151,<br \/>\nhogyha sz\u00f3lni kellett, sz\u00f3lt\u00e1l,<br \/>\nde h\u00e1t a tett terhel\u0151,<br \/>\nm\u00e9gis \u00fagy \u00e9rzem, a sz\u00e1nd\u00e9k<br \/>\nt\u00f6bb volt itt, mint az aj\u00e1nd\u00e9k,<br \/>\ns hogyha ez \u00e9pp \u00edgy igaz:<br \/>\nh\u00e1t nincsen t\u00fal nagy vigasz!<\/p>\n<p>Ide figyelj, dr\u00e1ga vend\u00e9g,<br \/>\nkedves \u00e9gi mesterem,<br \/>\nmagamt\u00f3l mit is tehetn\u00e9k,<br \/>\nha te kev\u00e9s vagy nekem?<br \/>\nPr\u00f3b\u00e1lhatlak feln\u00f6velni,<br \/>\nha te nem n\u0151sz egyed\u00fcl,<br \/>\ns a kudarc ilyen k\u00f6zel, ni!<br \/>\nA torn\u00e1con heged\u00fcl.<\/p>\n<p>\u00c9n csak csillagodat n\u00e9ztem &#8211;<br \/>\nnem tudom, j\u00f3l tettem-e?<br \/>\nB\u00e1tor voltam, holott f\u00e9ltem,<br \/>\nj\u00f3 ir\u00e1nyba mentem-e?<br \/>\nErre boldog, arra k\u00e9tl\u0151:<br \/>\nily k\u00e9t\u00e9lt\u0171 vagyok \u00e9n,<br \/>\nmagamt\u00f3l t\u00e1n t\u00f6bbet f\u00e9lt\u0151,<br \/>\nmint t\u0151led f\u00e9lhetek \u00e9n.<\/p>\n<p>Maradj meg az \u00f6sv\u00e9nyeden,<br \/>\nsz\u00f3l a biblikus papa,<br \/>\nt\u00e1n seg\u00edt a k\u00f6szv\u00e9nyeden,<br \/>\nsz\u00edvg\u00f6rcseiden, haha!<br \/>\nAm\u00edg \u00e9lsz, maradj ilyennek,<br \/>\nhisz nem lehetsz m\u00e1smilyennek,<br \/>\ncsak \u00e9pp te lehetsz a TE,<br \/>\n\u00f6nmagad \u00edt\u00e9lete!<\/p>\n<p>Ebben azt\u00e1n meg is nyugszom,<br \/>\nb\u00e1r semmi sem v\u00e1ltozott,<br \/>\nha k\u00f6r\u00e9m szorul a hurkom,<br \/>\nbogozni csak \u00e9n fogok,<br \/>\nmert amennyit \u0151 seg\u00edtett,<br \/>\nolyan verejt\u00e9kes inget<br \/>\nkimostam \u00e9n sz\u00e1zat is:<br \/>\nmosom az \u00f6nm\u00e1zat is!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Hajlik m\u00e1r fel\u00e9m az eml\u00e9k, \u00e1rja eg\u00e9sz tenger\u00e1r, egy szakad\u00e9k lett a nemr\u00e9g, a jelen meg defterd\u00e1r: m\u00faltmorzs\u00e1kt\u00f3l ember lettem, s vajon mi\u00e9rt tettem-vettem, \u00f6nmegtr\u00f3jai fal\u00f3, mind csak in\u00e1ba val\u00f3?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-88025","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-vers"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/88025","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=88025"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/88025\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=88025"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=88025"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ujkafe.website\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=88025"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}